Tuesday, 26 October 2021

Brian & Leigh, October 2021

It's been almost a year since my last update. And since then, whew!

The dome greenhouse is up but not planted yet. The solar panels and batteries are in and work great. We got an electric car to go with all that solar and love it. Heat pumps are next. I've done tons of tweaking of the interiors, so the living areas are more finished now. I'll add more windows to the guest house. I'll install cabinets for the apartment kitchen soon, so that's closer to being finished. Now I've got a real shop, yeah! Leigh has brought in lots of cool art to make things our own. There is still plenty to do, and things are shaping up.

Leigh met a scholar attending Elsewhere. She stayed in the guest house over the summer and she and her friends have been a delight to have here.

In August I had Coddiwomple trucked from Virginia to Anacortes, Washington. We spent a few months exploring the San Juan Islands. I drove a reconnaissance loop around British Columbia ahead of my plan to experience Desolation Sound (and maybe beyond!) next summer.

I had a wonderful visit with nieces, nephews and their kids in Santa Cruz. And mother who is turning 100! I set mom up with Zoom so we can connect with her much more easily.

Leigh got her license activated for Colorado and will be seeing patients in town soon. The Doctor will be right with you, yeah!

And now we're back in Colorado with some white already on the local mountains. The deer are coming down in anticipation of winter. We're looking forward to snow sports and the hot springs. And of course all the projects.

Things are definitely moving profoundly and rapidly. I'll start with Leigh.

Leigh was nearly blind. Imagine finding your way by feel, contact lenses, and not being able to see who or what is there. Imagine living in a constant state of stress and fear. Lasik changed all that a few years ago, literally overnight. She now has 20/20 vision and her life is completely different. A similar thing happened when we attended a course in Sun Valley, ID in October. As she says in that video link “...you will dissolve your anxieties, your conflicts, your unhealed wounds, and you come upon freedom.” That's exactly what happened. Leigh getting her license (in three days!) and practicing again are external evidence of this huge internal dissolution. I'm so happy!

I am shifting also. Over the past year I have become calmer and more aware. I sometimes see this 'thing' operating, run by it's programs. There's a new kind of peace, and a different silence, and a compassion that is settling into me.

For the many years that I did so much 'personal work', I always yearned to help people. But I knew I wasn't ready: my agenda and ego were too active to honestly sit with anyone. About 10 years ago that shifted and I was in a place where helping could happen, and it did. I made a difference in a lot of lives.

I was in India many year ago visiting Bhagavan's old school. I wandered around and came upon a groundskeeper. I doubt he spoke English. I remember it as vividly as if was now: he turned and our eyes met. I saw that he saw all of me, through me, and beyond me. Energy, depth, compassion and light was coming through him. It shot through my body and penetrated physically into my skull. A universe, a realm, of loving light expanded into me. In that instant I knew that the life, the reality that I live in, is a tiny fraction of what is there. I saw what I am seeking. We didn't speak. He walked away and my life was changed.  He lives in the state that Preethaji describes.  

So that's what I want: to affect people like that groundskeeper did me. And thanks to the countless blessings and ceaseless work of Sri AmmaBhagavan, it is gradually happening. I feel myself filling, being replaced, with space, and light. It's a beautiful thing.

Friday, 18 December 2020

Brian & Leigh, December 2020

 Hello my friend,  
     We're officially Coloradans!  The California home is sold.  We're adapting to our new environs.  This unexpected relocation to a very small town on the Western Slope was a big, and definitely the right, move for us.   
     We're learning how to live in this area.  AWD is pretty much required.  Costco is ~2 1/2 hours each way.  It is snowing again today, deer are in rut, and the mountains are awesome.  We've been snowshoeing a few times.  We'll be skiing, snowboarding and snow kiting soon.  It's all worth it.
     Lots of projects are underway:  I'm using a little tractor/backhoe, a drill and jackhammer to level the ground for a dome greenhouse.  The electric car is a marvel.  'Town' is a mile away, and electric bikes make exploring and getting back up the hill fun.  Solar panels and batteries are in the works.  Landscaping is slowed by the snow.  Smart home stuff is going in.  My shop is coming together, now including welding and pneumatic gear.  Leigh has started working with people again.  She's not promoting anything, but word is getting around about her skills.        
     Windows, doors, lighting, flooring and such are in the planning and delivery stages.  We've finished building a totally necessary trailer to haul stuff around.  The guest house is quite livable now.  Holler if you'd like to visit!      
     We're learning about pellet stoves, hydronic heating, Mason jars, freeze drying gear, fermenting crocks, dehydrating and canning.  We're making yogurt, kombucha, nut butters and hummus from scratch.  There's an honor system grocery with incredibly delicious local organic produce within bicycling distance.
     Mystical things happen around here: lights, orbs, synchronicities, animals, plants, rocks, snow, the soil, trees, water, sun and wind all combine for a strong two way connection with whatever you choose to call the Presence.  Fiber internet allows us to participate in webinars and courses and Zoom with friends and family.
     We hope to complete the PV solar in January, a trip to India in February, the dome greenhouse in March, doors and windows in April and back to the Chesapeake in May to prepare for sailing Coddiwomple to Maine this summer.            
     I'm closing my business domain, so this is the last note from bjacobs@sourcones.com.  Reply to this email if you'd like to be included in my new friends list.  
     Many of the people we've met say 'I don't know why, but I have to be here.', or 'I was called here and this where I'm supposed to be.'  There is an instant sense of connection, interdependence and genuine interest in each other.  We know we are working it out together, whatever 'it' turns out to be.
     As always, I'd love to hear from you!  

Brian & Leigh

Monday, 29 June 2020

Brian & Leigh, July 2020

Hello my friend! 
     Here’s what’s new since my last update in December: We continued searching for a new home in Colorado’s Western Slope between Aspen and Telluride. We found a place that feels good to us: an area in the ‘Goldilocks zone’ at 6200’. It is a very small town of old hippies and new entrepreneurs, activities (hiking, biking, desert, rivers, lakes, canyons, skiing, kiting, farming, geology) galore. I’m amazed that this town of only 1500 is home to a solar energy institute, bio dynamic farming, a clinical herbalism school, an artist’s creativity incubator residence, a public radio station, and more.   

     Our new home backs to BLM land, has southern exposure, room for a garden and a yurt in the trees for Leigh. There are 11,000' peaks just a few miles away and we’ll remodel to optimize those views. There is a large shop area and plenty of sunshine for solar power. I’m excited to replace my 20 year old Civic with an electric car and gas it up from solar! There is a 3 bedroom guest house in case you want to visit us.
     My California home of the past 33 years is under contract. By the end of August we’ll be moved into our new Colorado abode.  
     Since we’re in limbo with two houses in escrow, I saw an opportunity to get back aboard our beloved Coddiwomple. She’s in great shape! So we’re on the Chesapeake for the next month wandering around and anchoring out as much as we can. We’re feeling that maybe we gotta keep the ‘Wompler for another year, at least. (Oh, the Bahamas again! And, how about those Virgins? Gosh, what about the San Juans?) Colorado's Western Slope is an amazing area, but it's a long way from the ocean. It seems we'll need salt water, wind, and beaches in addition to deserts, forests, rivers, canyons, mountains and snow.
     I had never imagined making such moves. This transformation is big, even for me. But the sense is too strong and signs are too clear to ignore. So at 68 I open to the loss of stuff, connections, familiarity and the appearance of security at the beach in California. Our new home feels like an excellent place to be, and contribute from, during the inevitable collapses and personal and societal transformations. 
     It is both an exciting and wrenching time. We have unemployment, income inequality, Covid, unsound banks, an unsustainable national debt, the climate catastrophe, trillion dollar companies, record market highs, police brutality exposing our racism and Trump-ism exposing our self centered-ness. Meanwhile amazing engineering and scientific breakthroughs accelerate. Underlying all of this is an enormous planetary transformation in personal and collective consciousness. It won't be pretty. But it will happen. 
     The last 6 months were internally emotionally brutal and finally beautiful for me. We continue evolving our daily practices, meditations, attend webinars, etc. We will likely return to India for a few weeks in December.
     If any of this inspires questions or comments, I’d love to hear from you. I want to know how you're faring and what's new, so please connect!

Brian & Leigh
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Friday, 13 December 2019

Brian & Leigh, December 2019

Here's what's new since my last update in May
We lived aboard Coddiwomple, based in a marina in Deltaville,VA.  We had a secure and fixed home base to enjoy the work we’d done to our water-home.  We took short local trips and actually sailed places. I did a blue water passage. We did reconnaissance in the Caribbean with three weeks on Terre de Haute, Guadeloupe.  And three more weeks of reconnaissance by car to research sailing to Maine. But along the way we felt pressure, that a tipping point is being reached, and we should sell our labored and beloved Coddiwomple and get serious about our next home.  So in late August we pulled her from the water, made sales videos and trekked back across the US to CA. We were drawn to an area of southern Colorado, northeast of Telluride. Finally back in Laguna, I launched into six years of deferred maintenance on our home and painted inside and out, new carpet, new garage, decks, beds, furniture, etc.  I gave away clothes, surfboards, windsurfing, paragliding, diving, skiing and hiking gear, consolidated old family photos and history and pared, cleaned and reduced everywhere. I feel clean and ready. But for what?
Fun facts:  worldwide debt is ~250 Trillion. That’s ~$115,000 per (developed world) person.  Our children are inheriting our global warming, pollution, corporations, health, diet, contagions, media, guns, etc. legacy.  In short there’s a lot of collective karma to be worked out. Gently or abruptly, things will change. Something new is coming.
Leigh and I very naturally stopped drinking a few years ago.  Eating meat has similarly fallen away. We spend a lot of time meditating.  Leigh is experiencing body sensations, 3-D visions and precursor messengers to very high consciousness.  I feel there is a lot of reorganization, training and preparation going on. For what, or how, dunno. It feels like an apogee to me.
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Brian & Leigh

Friday, 10 May 2019

Brian & Leigh, May 2019

     I was in the Loire Valley and then Paris for 3 months. Everyone needs to spend time in Paris! It is an essential part of anyone's education. We stayed near Versailles and took the train to the heart of the city most days. This was when Trump visited and insulted both Macron and our war dead. The food, OMG, the food, is non GMO: We ate constantly and still lost weight. Amazingly, Leigh has no problem with lactose and gluten there. Health care is quick, uncomplicated and about 20% of US costs. I met expats, UNESCO talent, a female Phd from Egypt, so many fascinating and caring people.  Video here.
     Leigh was called again by the plants to the Peruvian jungle in the headwaters of the Amazon. Her work there was for 6 weeks. I remained in the States.
     We've been to the North Carolina Outer Banks (OBX) in the summer on our catamaran, and I wanted to experience the area during the off season. I spent two weeks there in an ocean front home in December, visited with good friends, and was treated to a genuine Nor Easter. It was fabulous! Video here.
     I'd heard Asheville, NC was a place I had to check out, so I spent a few weeks there also. It is an unlikely center of yoga, meditation, chiropractors, craft beer and quaintness. The people are sweet and welcoming. I highly recommend Asheville!
     After Leigh completed her plant medicine work, I joined her in Peru (my first visit) in the Sacred Valley (near Machu Picchu). We rented a small adobe thatch roof house on a dirt road near a small village an hour from Cuzco. It is in a valley at 10 thousand feet, surrounded by jagged 14 to 19 thousand foot peaks. Spectacular. Video here.
     In March we returned to our home in Laguna to put things back in order. It's been almost two years since I was there and it was great to be back. So happy to see our beloved neighbors again!
     We returned to Coddiwomple at the south end of the Chesapeake Bay and spent a few weeks doing fixes and modifications. We're now back in the water with a clean, functional, efficient boat. The plan was to sail to Maine over the summer. Instead, we're doing something radically different: establishing a home base at a marina in Deltaville, VA. There are literally more boats than people here. The Chesapeake has 3600 miles of coastline and tons to explore in a shallow draft boat like ours. This is where the United States was born.
     We spent a week and half in a wonderful modern/restored log cabin in the Shenandoah National Forest. In June we'll be on Terre-de-Haut,Guadeloupe, part of the Caribbean cruising circuit, for 3 weeks checking it out before maybe sailing there ourselves. In July we'll spend 3 weeks researching Massachusetts to Maine by car, also in advance of maybe sailing up there. We'll be back in Laguna in the fall.

     This privilege and honor of seeing more of the world continues to shift and deepen my perspective. No matter what language, climate, wealth or culture, the issues, the work we as individuals are here to do is the same. Different circumstances clothing the same, universal, stuff. Really feeling that we're all doing the same work makes it easier to talk to people anywhere, in any language, at any educational or socioeconomic level.
     Being in boat yards, connecting with driven sailors and deteriorating boats, amplifies how temporary things are. I worked very hard on renewing Coddiwomple, and now she's in great shape. The purpose of the work is to learn, to grow, and eventually let it dissolve back into the elements.
     It has been about two years since I started my education in trading options. In my experience the conventional wisdom (let your winners run, choose quality, options are risky, cut your losses, technical analysis, buy and hold) isn't true.
     The comforts of industrialization have been exchanged for our health and vitality. In Peru I experimented with Wim Hof's (The Ice Man) methods. It is startling how naturally responsive our bodies, and immune systems, innately are to the environment.
     Real food (as we had in France and Peru), mostly without sugar, makes a huge difference to my health and consciousness. I had no sense of how influential it was. With no work at all, I've lost about 13 pounds, etc.
     I'm excited that the fire of my spiritual imperative has been brightly rekindled. I am meditating daily, studying, growing rapidly, and having experiences described in various traditions. When the time is right, I hope to be helping people again in effective ways.
Brian & Leigh

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Friday, 5 October 2018

Brian & Leigh, October 2018

     Hello! I had no plan to be writing from a cottage in the French countryside. But here we are, in the Loire Valley filled with chateaux built in the 1500s, doves cooing, butterflies flitting, deer rutting, apples falling, bicycling forest paths, cool and dry evenings, and OMG, the food. The food!  Here's how we got here:   
     It's been seven months since my last update in March. 
To catch you up April through June we were at the Saint Mary's, GA boat yard, working as hard as humanly possible to get the boat finished: painting everything inside and out (that alone was ~3 months), a new engine (how will I mount it? how will I steer it?), inverter, instrumentation, tank gauges, floorboards, galley, cabinets, lighting, lifelines, stack pack, window covers, shade canopy, propane system, rechristening and tons more. Scalding temperatures (it hit 100) and drenching humidity interrupted by historic rain. After over a year on the hard and 7 solid months of work, we launched July 1st. She's beautiful, functional, clean, fresh and comfortable. We're now lighter, simpler and more efficient. It was worth the work. If boat projects interest you, see video number 066 through 071 at https://goo.gl/eSwFu5
've weathered enough hurricanes for now, thank you, so my aim was to get us to safety up to the Chesapeake for the season. The challenge in boating from near Jacksonville, FL to VA was waiting for weather windows between all the rain. The stuttering trip was wonderful, much more relaxed, being somewhat familiar with the areas, heading for our favorite places, knowing the weather, the approaches, the stores and the locals. We made new and renewed friendships with people and places. Especially Kenny & Rhonda in St. Mary's, Paul, Ann & Elliott in Dallas Bluff, Oriental, the Pungo, Richard and Brenda in Colington and Bob in Deltaville. If you'd like to see the journey see video 072 at https://goo.gl/eSwFu5     The plan was to explore the Chesapeake through October then head back to our home in Laguna Beach, CA. But we got an inquiry from France: Would we like to house swap from mid September through November (after the summer throngs are gone, and before winter) with the use of an apartment in Versailles (20 minutes by train to Paris), a cottage in the Loire Valley, and an old Mercedes? We'd be dumb to say no. So we hauled the boat early, just in time to miss Hurricane Florence. After a few days in the apartment in Versailles (Louis XIV's Palace), we're now in the UNESCO Loire Valley countryside. See https://goo.gl/maps/Q3rANPwAPEt  We'll drift between the Loire and Paris for the next few months, exploring both.
eigh has been called to do more plant medicine work in the Peruvian jungle which is the headwaters of the Amazon. She'll be there from mid November through December. I'll spend two weeks in the OBX  https://goo.gl/maps/5LRVePkffS42 because I want to experience it in the raw deserted winter. Then a few weeks in Asheville, NC, getting acquainted with the scene there. Leigh and I will reconnect at 8,000 feet in Pisac, near Maccu Picchu, in Peru in January. This will be my first visit to Peru. We've rented a small village house there for two months. I'll connect with the locals and we'll do more exploring. Then back to Laguna in about March for a month or so to tend to our home. Then back to our boat patiently waiting for us on the Chesapeake in Deltaville, VA. Next spring we'll slowly wander our way up to Maine for the summer of 2019.
     Concomitant with the hard work and varied surroundings, internal shifts are happening too.  We've visited Manteo (Roanoke), Jamestown, Williamsburg, Yorktown, etc. in the US. And now we're living in France where history is everywhere and everything. I'm getting an understanding, a richer feeling for the 1400s, 1500s, especially the 1600s, on up to today. Power, spirit, art, expression, control, protection, opportunity, nature, nurture. How we got here: What was. What is. What could be. (We visited a dermatologist near Paris for some minor attention and paid ~$75. The same thing in Jacksonville, FL cost way over $600 two years ago.)  And where I want to be. Living for four months in New Zealand, then two months in Australia, and now almost three months in France is both enlightening and disheartening. It's getting clearer that if I don't want to be in the US, I don't have to.
I'm less inclined to incite people to experience what they consider challenging things (sailing, kite surfing, physical work, paragliding, hiking, traveling), to convince people that yes, they really can do it.  Everyone has their own path, their own time and their own fears.  I'm enjoying who I am more.
I'd love to hear from you. As always, let me know if you'd like to be removed from my list.Brian & Leigh Jacobs  

Friday, 16 March 2018

Brian & Leigh March 2018

Hello my Friend!

I've been in Gold Coast, Australia for a few months in a home exchange, rejuvenating after 4 solid months of boat work. I slept for the first 4 days here. I didn't realize how hard I was working and how exhausted I was.  Leigh was here with me for a few weeks then went back to Peru. We'll rejoin at the boat in St. Mary's, Georgia shortly. We hope to be afloat in about six weeks, sailing north towards the Chesapeake and beyond.

Of course we explored this small slice of Australia. We love it here!  Here's a video. Caught up on computer projects, videos, writing, taxes, sailing route research and such. And now that some volatility has returned to the stock market, trading has become easier, safer and more profitable. I've been working out often, getting much stronger, helped substantially by a naturally ketogenic diet. I'm now 66.

October to January was a long run of hard work on the boat, dodging rain and freezing temperatures. Got a lot going on: the hulls are painted, the flooring is done, most of the interior is painted, the galley is nearly done. I've wanted to learn about fiberglass, boat paints, routers, so many different materials and new skills for a long time. That's happening and I feel more competent and confident (with the boat on the hard, at least). Eventually I'll post YouTube videos on the projects.

We've made some wonderful new boatyard friends. People who have a vision and work for 3 or 4 years to manifest it: buy a big catamaran, or a steel mono-hull, tear it apart, and rebuild it. These are massive projects, full of failure and frustration, exposed to the elements, endless problem solving, toxic chemicals, costing thousands, noise, mosquitoes and very physically demanding. Yet they (we!) persevere. I'm inspired being around, working with and learning from these committed people. There are also boatyard people who haven't accepted that they will never finish, will never sail again, who haven't moved on. 

Boat yards are dangerous and alive places. A woman slipped off a wet stair, literally fell on her head and severely broke a wrist. I drove her to the ER. A few days later a guy fell hard off a tall ladder and broke a hip... ambulance... and a long, long recovery. In the boatyard we're all instantly connected by our mortality, the value of today, when someone is injured. I've had a few close calls, too.

There is a correlation between one's worldview and how much time a person has spent abroad. I've been to nearly 50 countries so here you have it with no apologies: Being spatially (9,000 miles) and temporally (16 hours) distant in Australia, keeping up on the news of mass murders, Trump, the GOP, etc. has given me a freshened perspective. Imagine (slowly, with a breath between each): a high standard of living, universal health care, no guns, zero mass murders since 1996, no TV ads for drugs, no TV ads for lawyers, roundabouts, no fear of being out alone at night, humane care for the destitute, no monster trucks, no death penalty, no homeless, no for profit prisons, 'least worst' prioritized voting, fines if you don't vote, no disenfranchisement of felons, few flags, few churches, low obesity, a large middle class, small income inequality and people calling you 'mate' and 'luv', All of that is everyday normal and ordinary here. I broke out laughing reading a headline “Men with a knife rob service station”. Seeing this, living here in Australia for a few months, living what IS possible on earth, and being from the US, is heartbreaking. The problems in the US are fixable... everything is... and I feel Trump is a godsend illuminating how sick things really are. So thank you Donald. We are now on full display, ready for healing.

Renting out our Laguna home the past few years was semi successful and had substantial tax consequences. There was scant interest in use of our home while we are away. The home exchange concept is working out great: we're hosting people from the US, Canada, Sweden, Norway, Australia and working on long stays in Vancouver, Santa Fe, Maui, and Asheville, etc. It looks like there will be more immersive travel in our future. We're connecting with people eager to share, to give and to receive. 

I've worked on 'wealth consciousness' for years and I've finally seen an undeniable shift in myself. I am at ease writing this from a huge waterfront home with a pool, boat, Tesla, etc. The transformation in me has been slow and long in coming, but is completely palatable. And there is no holding on to it.

Several people at the boat yard mentioned recovery from late stage (prostate and pancreatic) cancer with diet. I was intrigued. Diet? Their living, breathing proof got me interested in the subject. They (unknown to each other) both referred me to the same book: Cancer as a Metabolic Disease. It seems very plausible, and dovetails with the current Ketones supplement fad. I've always preferred eating fats, avocados, nuts, vegetables and such. Lucky, eh? Fasting is also mentioned in the book. The reset that happens during fasting makes plenty of evolutionary sense to me: the stress of no food encourages jettisoning unproductive cells. Leigh and I tried a 5 day fast before she left for Peru. I was surprised that it was easy, refreshing and invigorating. Who knew? Maybe I'll do it annually.

Leigh is continuing her plant medicine work in Peru. She spent the last three weeks in the jungle (near Pucallpa) living in a thatched hut near a lake with rain, mud, insects scuttling around, monkeys, sloths, and leaf cutter ants. She is now in a mountain valley (near Calca) for another two weeks. I've done two plant medicine ceremonies and each was a major life event for me. Each ceremony took my trust, vulnerability, strength, courage and a lot of integration. Leigh is fully committed to doing her work, day after day after day.  I'm in awe. Her transformations reliably bring me to tears. We're eager as puppies to be with each other again.

Leigh shared this quote with me: Everything worthwhile in life is won through completing the associated negative experience. Any attempt to escape the negative, to avoid it, quash it or silence it only backfires. The avoidance of suffering IS suffering. The avoidance of struggle IS struggle... Pain is an inextricable thread in the fabric of life... if you’re able to not give a fuck about the pain, you become unstoppable." ~~ Mark Manson

I'm noticing how much time and how many opportunities I have. Like when walking or taking a shower or eating... most anytime. My body will move or clean or feed itself pretty much without my supervision.  I don't need to be thinking about it.  That gives me lots of time and opportunities to relax, to feel, to connect, to be grateful and to smile.  I'm working to make it a habit.         

There's lots of new autobiographical stuff on the website/blog and new YouTube videos, (the ignominious voyage from the Bahamas back to Georgia and our road trip from CA to NM) as well.

As always, you're invited. We'd love to hear from you. 

Brian & Leigh